It’s going to be a long few days.
Eddie is going to Reading today and getting back early Monday morning.
I might just fall off the face of the Earth. I know that sounds dramatic but I’m going to be bored. Well, not so much bored, because I have stuff to do, but more like – lonely.
That sounds absolutely tragic doesn’t it, I’m a grown woman but I’m going to be lonely.
I feel like I need to occupy every moment of every day with something now that I know he’s not just 5 minutes away.. Gosh, my mind is such a weird place.
I have some work to get done today which is very important, and then I think I’ll do my nails and dye my hair. My hair doesn’t really need dying, my roots are only just coming through, but it’s something to do at least.
But the work comes first and so I’ll only dye my hair if its finished. Yes, it can be like a treat.
stop this, I wish I wouldn’t have a monologue on my blog. Make it interesting, engaging. People might read this.
Basically, each day needs to be planned like a military operation so I shan’t lose my mind and end up going crazy watching episodes of Whose Line is it Anyway, or alternatively watching the whole 8 seasons of Desperate Housewives for about the 5th time in my life.
Away from my craziness and onto some other craziness.
Ever since William broke up with his girlfriend (when they were on holiday with friends) she has been trying ridiculously hard to get him back.
At first he had about 76 missed calls from her, I thought this had all died down and she had grown to accept everything that had happened, I mean, she is with a new guy at the moment.
She hates me as William has always been a good friend of mine. He would therefore tell me all his problems, even if they were concerning her. I would be the only person to know about things that she was doing and saying etc. Of course she knew that he told me as we’d discuss things and so she despised me because I knew the sort of person she was. One day she also told William that it was obvious he cared more about me than he ever did about her. Apparently he didn’t know what to do or say to this so just stayed silent. I remember Robert said the same thing to me about William and I just looked on vacantly.
Anyway, during the relationship if she and William would argue, she would go to her ex’s house. She got annoyed with him for having a photo taken with me at his birthday barbecue and pulled him aside crying.
Now that they broke up she slept with 4 people in the space of a month, two of which were over 24 hours.
I feel quite sorry for her. She obviously has a lot going on in her mind that she doesn’t know how to deal with or process. People do crazy things out of desperation, but then why was she desperate? Why did she feel she had to do this? I don’t know nor understand and don’t think anyone ever fully will.
A couple of nights ago this girl and William were arguing over twitter for the whole world to see. She was saying some hurtful stuff and I contemplated saying to both of them to take it elsewhere and stop it. But by the time I saw it it was over.
The next morning it looked like it was going to start again so I text William saying that arguing over twitter definitely wasn’t the best way to go about it all.
I thought it was all over, in fact it actually was. They had stopped arguing and I was going about my day, until Charlotte text me with a picture of a girl’s Facebook status. We all went to the same school and she was in William’s year. Anyway, she was saying about how vile and horrid his ex is and has tagged her in it.
It’s got several comments of people praising her for writing the status and ‘having a backbone.’ Is it having a backbone or is it public bullying? Having a backbone would be calling a person out, saying to their face that they’re angry.
Anyone can sit on their phone or behind their computer and write nasty little messages. I could write whatever I wanted on this blog, but I don’t.
No, I don’t think this girl has a backbone, I think it’s a cheap shot, just like arguing over twitter.
Call me old fashioned. The status has about 13 likes, one of them is from a girl who spent about 6 months of my relationship with Robert trying to chase him. She, like the others, was in the year below me at school and I remember talking about him to a friend once, to which she overheard and started saying that they were going out together on Saturday.
I don’t know what she thought her point was but I very casually replied “no no honey, he and I have plans Saturday.”
My life I swear that girl was always weird, she gave me the dirtiest looks every time she saw me after that.
I should have just let her have him and then I could have got out quicker.
It was Matthew’s 23rd birthday on Monday. I sent him a little text, knowing he’s in America I didn’t expect a reply but the gesture was there.
Eddie has the cutest ways of asking me if I want to do something, like last night he text me saying “did you want to see each other for a little bit later?” He could have just left it there and I’d have said yes. But he carried on to say “seeing as we won’t be seeing each other for 5 days…” Almost as if he had to justify wanting to see me, or thinking that I wouldn’t want to unless he gave a reason.
My life I’m going crazy already.